walk away

is being this emotional a prerequisite for being a songwriter? or do i enjoy songwriting because i am so emotional? would i trade for being more stable and less sensitive in if it meant that i couldn't write?

"did i listen to pop music because i was miserable? or was i miserable because i listened to pop music?"
-high fidelity

i wrote a song a few months ago about needing a broken heart. because i'm such a commitment phobe and unintentionally do whatever hurtful things i've done in the past, i figured it would be cleansing and point me back towards God. i wouldn't call this a broken heart, more like an "i liked what i saw and put everything behind it which was foolish and i knew what i was setting myself up for but it still hurts." it might work though.

11 songs i'm listening to now

1. rascal flatts - i'm movin' on
(the only song of theirs i've ever liked)

2. ben harper - walk away
(pretty fitting emotionally "and it's so hard to do/ and so easy to say/ but sometimes/ sometimes you just have to walk away/ walk away")

3. nickel creek - when you come back down
(see older post)

4. jeff buckley - lover, you should have come over
(see previous post)

5. andrew peterson - the coral castle

6. angie aparo - cry
(yeah, he wrote it, and yeah, faith hill had a big hit with it)

7. anna nalick - wreck of the day
(you mean 2 a.m.'s not her only song? "if this is giving up, then i'm giving up, on love")

8. bebo norman - where the streets stand still
(i'm getting old i guess, it's all about settling down)

9. blue merle - if i could
(coldplay after smoking blue grass)

10. bright eyes - lua
(i'm not the only one who notices how insane our thoughts get or how we act after dark, and then in the morning you're like, "huh? i'm a crackhead!")

11. caedmon's call - table for two
(end it on a hopeful note "and you know the plans you have for me/ and you can't plan the ends and not plan the means")

i think it would be fun to be a radio dj, you've gotta have a touch in setting up a good playlist.

duke just farted and it smells horrible, gotta leave the room!