i was reading through (and editing/deleting) the blogs i've written over the past few years, and holy cow have i grown up. i had spent so much time chasing girls and sounded so immature. i guess working in a delicate environment, proving myself to administrators, parents, and other teachers has really made me man-up. so has my relationship with megan.
this is it. this is for real. no turning back, only pressing forward. there's no escape clause should i mess up. this is commitment and covenant. one thing i've learned lately is to meet things head on, flush them out, and put the drama behind me. man that's so much easier than bagging it up and letting it eat away at your insides.
having a full time job, putting a deposit down on a townhouse -- these are all huge life steps. the stakes are so much higher, and thank God, I feel like i'm able to look at things much more objectively and more logically than i ever have before. sure emotions play into what i've got going on, but forcing myself to do things more and more has made it easier. i'm even doing megan's hard work for her!
