it's official

i am now free to announce that i have been named the director of camp winfield! i'm super excited about the possilities and the thought of working with a bunch of my best friends to give kids one of the best experiences of their lives.

i'm probably crazy for taking this on before i graduate, but i don't see things getting any easier once i'm teaching, so i might as well start now.

to answer the questions that everyone is asking:
1) the old director resigned. i respect him for a lot of things and there are things that i will change. i probably won't get it right for a while, but the learning process will be half the fun.
2) yes, i would love for you to come work there.

goodbye hello my favorite live show

5 encores, all my favorite songs. good stuff. but really bittersweet, cause jump little children have been one of my top 10 bands since middle school. i loved them before i could get into their shows, and even more once i could. i've only bought one of their albums, but might binge soon and buy the rest... well, at least vertigo and between the dim and the dark.

"In the beginning the only goal was World Domination. But call it maturity, call it old age, call it what you will, we’re not as interested as we were in dominating the world."

"But if you're gonna go
I'm giving you the key
But only if you'll go
To Mexico."

ants on park benches and last hurrahs

not a lot to say. same ol' same ol'. trying to be PATIENT and see what happens. i think my emotions finally calmed down. i went to eat with a bunch of the juniors today and sat their quietly and kinda laughed inside as they complained about the cohort. i remember when we were there. we've all grown so much from those moments as a group. their group will be different from ours because they're all pretty similar, but there are still comparisons to make between the two groups.

they pulled out a blanket on front campus to sit on and complain about professors, so i sat on a bench and took the time to call tara while they gossiped. as we were talking, i realized that she and i and kim were sitting on those same benches just under a year ago when she let us know that she would be moving. the difference this time was she was sitting in warner robbins looking at a big ol' moving truck full of stuff ready to head to florida.

tomorrow is jump's "last hurrah" show in athens. hopefully jay will continue to tour, 'cause his voice and songwriting are too good for him not to. terrisa and i are going to the concert, and i know a lot of other people who will be there, so hopefully i'll get to see them. i'm eating lunch with lauren mo tomorrow. maybe i can convince her to relax, because i think she's running herself ragged over the cohort.

that was awfully long to not have much to say.

twins

does anybody else think that the chili peppers' drummer, chad smith, looks just like will ferrell?

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can
-All-American Rejects "Paper Heart"

perception

i've discovered that my perception of myself directly affects how i perceive others perception of me. if i'm happy and confident, everybody loves me. if i'm down on myself, everyone beats me down further. if i'm confused about what the heck is going on in my life, i don't really care.

and i do

i was so sure this was the time
i was gonna dive in after you
no more toes in the water, i would not stay dry
i was so sure you would be mine
i was gonna dive in after you
now i'm not so sure of anything

it's a fool who looks for logic in love
and i do
i was finally ignoring the past
forget your doubts boy
travel light, don't carry any bags
give my heart, no holding back
forget your doubts boy
now i'm not so sure of anything

it's a fool who looks for logic in love
and i do

...slowly becoming a song

duke, and the beast

ets is a beast. i sat in kilpatrick for more than 3 hours yesterday taking tests. i'll probably have to take at least one more praxis before i get all the certification, highly qualification, kiss no child left behindification's butt that i need to do. i'm glad i got to take the old s-a-t...

terrisa came over when she got off work and rode with me out to mattie wells to meet tara and duke. we stopped at wendy's on the way and i didnt' realize i didn't have any lactaid, so terrisa friggin' scraped all the cheese off with her frosty spoon. how amazingly sweet is that?!? got to see tara, and say our final goodbyes before she finally moves this weekend. she gave me her laptop to return to the school of ed, and i gave her a mix cd of all my favorite songs... they're all like 6 minutes long and incredibly... pensive.

blue and duke didn't get along as well as i had hoped they would. they tried to hump each other, duke bluffed a few warning snarls, i separated them a bunch, and eventually just let them go at it until blue finally realized he was outmatched and gave up. terrisa and i eventually got to watch finding nemo, then we went and saw kelli and lindsey (pj!) at the watering hole.

i woke up at about 7 this morning and found it a lot easier to walk 2 dogs than i thought it would be (terrisa had blue last night). they are really well behaved this morning! well, i think they just wore each other out cause they're both sleeping all morning. if only everything else was so perfect.

i've decided duke is a lab/pit bull mix because of how big and flat his head is. but he's super sweet and listens really well, so i think justin will like him a lot. he and eric are driving down today to pick him up!

claire

claude debussy's "claire de lune" is the greatest song, ever.

i'm taking the special ed praxis and a general content praxis tomorrow (yeah 2 in a row... but i get a lunch break). i'm pretty confident and feel fortunate that i'm a good test taker. after that i'm meeting tara in macon to get her dog to give to my brother. i'm pretty dang excited about seeing her. she's about to move. :-(

i'm gonna make her a mix cd; it's like my thing to do now. i'll make you one too if you like.

cheap food

totino's pizza: the best thing since ramen noodles.
98 cents baby!

crack or wilco

dizzymusik: NO ONE should ever be at school from 8:30 to 5:15... taking a break

brett: jason, I've been at school from 8-5 for 1.5 weeks. I've had meetings at lunch adn after school. it's not that bad

brett: you get used to being intellectually drained

brett: it becomes a way of life

brett: sometimes it actually feels good

dizzymusik: you're a crackhead

brett: precisely. it gets me by

dizzymusik: give me some of that to try...

dizzymusik: or i could just go listen to wilco