philoso-fickle

sometimes life... it's funny. i get this overly romanticized view of the world and everything seems to have greater, deeper meanings than it had before. everything's enhanced like the supersaturated photograph of a lomo camera.

today was a good day. i had a long day at work, but kelly came by after school to get her cell phone and i just enjoyed being in her company, plain and simple. when i came home i took blue for a run, and with my ipod blaring ran farther than i can usually make it. the music kept me from hearing my heavy steps and labored breaths and it was just me, the music, and the wind in my face.

i cooked myself a fairly healthy dinner of grilled chicken, green beans, and pasta. got a quick shower, donned a long sleeve t-shirt and some nike pants and hung out with cianna, suzie, and shawn. i called callie to interrupt her studying and talk about how great it is that i'll be home in athens in 3 days. i'm just happy. i said "i love you" to 2 friends who i haven't said it to in a while.

when i got home i got online and talked the philosophy of my commitment issues with jason and whitney and decided all that sitting on the fence ever does for anyone is give them splinters (or more painful consequences if you choose to straddle said fence). still, i'm pretty comfortable on the fence, for now. it's a good view.

one day i'll jump down and pick a pasture to settle in, but for now, i just want to take pictures and figure life out. i've got a lot of what-ifs in my life, and most of them are just fantasy what-ifs that i've created. if they're a what-if now, how come they weren't a what-if then? jb says there's no such thing as what-if, only what was. i like that. we'll craft it into a song eventually. but for now, i need to sleep.

"we're trying to find our way to love
this running ain't no kind of freedom"
-david gray - freedom